How strange to watch yourself from the side

How strange to watch yourself from the side. Not so much interesting, but strange. All the time does not leave the feeling that you are trying to deceive yourself. It seems to change yourself, your thinking about something, or someone. To save something… To survive, to become stronger, or something. Or better prepared, just in case. And you yourself are lost among all these attempts at change. And this oddity again leads you to an empty room, where tomorrow there will be repairs. And you will sit there again on the floor, smwipe away how the candle burns, listen to the breath of the reckless night moths and try not to get off … Don’t get off track. Since I chose her, go to the end. Suddenly it will turn out … Only dreams have changed, not the same as before, they change with you. That’s why you often don’t want to sleep…But still, no matter how strange it may seem, it’s interesting where all this will lead…